The reality of it ALL is I am a dreamer.
I think I really try to do the things, I dream about. But they rarely happen, because I get stalled. I am trying desperately to figure out just what stalls me.
I know part of it is my brain, I get frustrated and overwhelmed (why can I never spell that word). And then I just start shutting down.
That is where I am at today (Daisy don't call or anyone else, not even you mom, please). There are just too many decisions too make, too many things to figure out and no energy to do it with.
I know that I am where I am because of past decisions and I can't change the past. But how do I stop this horrible pattern I am in.
I am middle aged (hopefully) and don't feel I have accomplished much.
Sorry for the downer, but it is where I am.
MOM of 12 in MISSISSIPPI:Currently living in NEW MEXICO This is about me and the joys and frustrations of being a woman, wife, mother of 12 and grandmother of many. It will be thoughts about things tried or I wish I had tried. But most of the time it will be my ponderings, mutterings and just getting through this life as I know it.
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