You know I have had a lot of things not go right in my life and some very bad things too.
But this is the first time I felt I wanted a do over.
I would love to go back to a year ago and do it over.
I may end up in the same place but at least maybe some things would be better.
I feel like I wasted most of my efforts this past year more than I ever have. And because of those wasted efforts I missed something important. Even though I am not sure what it was.
I ran away from my problems and kids. And now some of those kids have run away from me.
I have been an emotional vampire to be around, the terrible thing is I know it but can't seem to stop doing it.
I know life is a struggle for many, that I am not alone. But when a person is where I am at it feels pretty alone. And alone in amongst a crowd somehow feels really lonely.
So I spite of myself, my life events, I will try to do better. Carpe diem!!!!
So for better or worse people you are stuck with me and I am stuck with you, except me or move on, and learn to do as I am trying to do!
MOM of 12 in MISSISSIPPI:Currently living in NEW MEXICO This is about me and the joys and frustrations of being a woman, wife, mother of 12 and grandmother of many. It will be thoughts about things tried or I wish I had tried. But most of the time it will be my ponderings, mutterings and just getting through this life as I know it.
Well, don't feel alone with the do over wish, there are a bunch of us. The good thing is that we can learn for our mistakes and choose the correct path the next time. We can reflect and say we are sorry for the things we found out we did wrong, but if somebody else chooses not to forgive, that is their loss. CARPE DIEM!!
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