Mom's 75th Birthday

Surpise!

We surprised her alright.  My brother, Chris had made it to her house 1 hour before me and kept her occupied.  She didn't know he was coming, but since he lives only a few hours, it was and wasn't a surprise.  She knew my youngest brother, David and little sister, Tracy were coming it on Saturday.

So all of a sudden, Chris came in on Friday night and then I came in hollering "I hear someone is getting old this weekend!"  Of course, over the weekend she informed me that "she would let me know when she was getting old".   

Many days I feel like she will out live me.  My mother is amazing with the energy has!

It was a long weekend, due to travel and not sleeping well.

But it was good to see family we hadn't seen in quite awhile (it is hard to visit much when you live 15 hours or more away and are broke all the time) and meet family we hadn't meet before.  There was a lot of laughing and abit of crying.  Chris did a really nice DVD slide show for mom, with plenty of old pics.  We all exchanged photos off the digital cameras (technology can be good) before everyone dispersed. 

All in all I would say a Good Time was had by All!

Pure Romance

It is official I am a Consultant.
So contact me for orders or parties (which can be so much fun)!
prmomdzn@yahoo.com
barbaracerveny.pureromance.com
Looking forward to this business, I see it as a way to achieve the retirement Dan and I want.  It has the added benefit of interacting with other woman :)
Excited and scared at the same time!

Family Dynamics and Emotions

WHY!!!
Do people who keep all their emotions pent up (ice people) belittle those of us, who freely let go (all be it sometimes maybe more than we should)...
WHY!!!
Do they make us feel like we are broke....when reality is we are on opposite sides of the pendulum swing....
AND
It takes all of us to balance out the world.
We let you be who you are so let us be who we are and QUIT telling us
to PULL it TOGETHER!  We pull together what we can, when we can....
Many times the over-emotional are teetering on a fine line and you are probably adding to the problem.
WHAT!!!
Has happened to compassion, unconditional love???  We are family after all... the world is to full of petty bullshit... and family should be there to support one another...
AND
Let me tell you life is too short for this and one day (it may be in the hereafters) you will regret your actions, as I am sure I will regret a few :?
THIS outburst is dedicated to someone similar to me and I care deeply about!

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS!!!

Oh, yes, I am not above making them or so disorganized mentally not to make them :)
I resolve to survive my life in spite of myself, family and circumstances :)
I am seriously going to work on the goals list on the side of this blog.
Praying that everyone I know and love has a year they would like to have!

Out with the Old in with the NEW

I am praying that many of the problems that plagued me during 2011 will quietly sneak away.
I am however realistic...I know that until I change many things will not change.
I am striving to deal with my depression...and in spite of the PS comment to the last post...I am suicidal BUT I love my family TOO much to go through with it.
I am going to put more effort into straightening out our financial situation.  I am considering becoming a Pure Romance Consultant.  I am also going to look into other possibilities.  I still would like to start a business, something to do with nature not women's health...greenhouse, garden consultant, landscaping using local critters to embellish it or teaching children about ecology.
My baby will be 13, she wants so desperately to be grown-up but at the same time wants to be a kid.  Living in a household of adults is aging her beyond her years.
Andrew would have been 16 in 2011, and it was very difficult to deal with; which is about all I am going to say on the matter because it is a sore in my life that on milestone birthdays explodes!
In 2012, Tiff will have another daughter; Milestone birthdays will be Bethany at 13, Abby at 18, Ben at 21 and Nick at 25.  I will technically have only 2 children under 18....I am moving towards the light but do I really want to :(
Dan will officially start receiving his Social Security this month and in February will be starting a Gunsmithing Course through a company called AGI to become a Professional Gunsmith.
So life will be moving on, I just pray it will move in a Great Direction this year!!
I know it will take an awful alot of effort on my part but hopefully the people in my life will also be making alot of effort to improve their lives.